She's Beauty, She's Grace, She's...Back?
Sorry I left y'all hanging, here's some more of my most pressing thoughts
Thanks for sticking around and continuing to read, it’s so appreciated. Want to support me as an independent artist and my many crafts? Hang around until the end to find out how.
Are you really a creative if you don’t just disappear from your craft for a bit without any warning? Seems to happen a lot, for me at least. I’ve hit a really big creative block with writing and I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t weighing heavily on me. Writing started to feel a bit like all the other hobbies I have sitting in the corner, collecting dust. It’s a bit distressing but it’s worth picking up and dusting off, restarting again.
It might be my unmedicated ADHD, it might be that I’m stuck in front of a monitor all day, pent up, but I can never seem to stick with just ONE creative outlet and follow through with it. Mid-2019 through the end of December 2020 was my Etsy shop phase where I made polymer clay earrings like every other SAHM who knew how to run a social media page. Getting orders was like a perfect shot of espresso every single time but then I started feeling less of that high and more of the caffeine slump. Then I moved into textured paintings that let me make as big of a mess as I felt but for the purpose of art and my sanity. My kitchen table still bears the scars. By scars I mean the random blobs of tan paint and plaster mixtures I didn’t scrape off in time. It adds character much to my boyfriend’s dismay. Now it seems to be this + possibly drafting a book. Oh yeah - I’ve entered book writing territory. It’s very new. But it also felt like it was time. I guess you just know.
This space was created to essentially document all my creative endeavors and hopefully keep recycling that inspiration I felt each time. So true to my word, I’m documenting them all, no matter how small and no matter how possibly unachievable (but like, I’m still going to do them). It’s been hard to feel like documenting when social media at the moment has sucked me dry, leaving me with no desire to share anything about the things I like, or my life really. Posting anything feels like those scenes in movies where the mean girl is looking at you, eyebrow cocked, and scoffing. I think a lot of you feel that too. It’s a gross feeling. We’ll get through it though.
I don’t really know where I was going with this other than to say I’m not quitting this like all other creative ventures, I was just stuck for a bit. I think it’s good to admit when we’re stuck and not feel like we need to keep creating when we really just don’t want to. So the next venture is drafting a book that I’d love to get out to a publisher by the time I’m 30 and I hope y’all are still willing to hang around for the return of my obsessions + small pieces I feel like posting. Maybe just less scheduled?
As an Aries, I can completely relate to the jumping from hobby to hobby thing. Hah. I’m glad you’re sticking to writing for now and that I was able to snag some earrings. Looking forward to whatever phases you go through!